Right, here i am, after being MIA from blogger, MSN, etcs.
So much has happened already.
First of all, it's the month of May
Speech Day's long gone, and say hello to Exams (instant execution of throat) :D
I'm already saying GoodBye to SS and Chemistry, with a definite F frm either paper.
I realise, last minute mugs won't do it this time,
The past was just my luck, oh well, I'll hafta get ready for the results already,
prepare for the worst, Suha.
Exams just makes my life a huge rush because it's this period of time things will be neglected. And you can't really stop and look around you and suck in Life.
It's this period of time which will always succeed in making me a meltdown.
Nights after mugging sessions will always end with a breakdown.
I don't think I can make it this time.
Ran out of luck? yeah.
In contrary, many things have been explored.
Farah has this great interest in Breakdancing,
and in a way she got me a lil inspired, with all her power talking.
She really can suck someone in, convincingly.
So i decided to try out something new, y'know, for a change?
Yeah it's real fun to try out a new interest, i mean like, completely new.
& i can really see Farah turn into something already if she keep perservering.
As for me? I'll just see how it goes, yeah? I don't really wanna push myself so much, just wanna enjoy whatever i'm doing.
Yeah, call me the Slacker.
Yesterday went to Town with Bf to take my mind off school for awhile.
Okay, we didnt really went to Town, but to the CBD area and sit beside Singapore River @ Clarke Quay.
Chilled out, talk and i laughed alot.
Really enjoyed myself out there. And the sunset, yeah the sunset was awesome.
Yeah, it did take my mind off Exams, School, and The Parents.
I'm really blessed. To have some one accompany me off somewhere I can just have fun and not think about my worries.
And what more if that person is loved.
What more if that person is some one who can make you laugh and also revise Chemistry and Physics at the same time just by looking at Singapore River.
Ohwell, it's fun going out Shadiq.
This part, this isint based on luck, no.
Anyway, talking about Parents,
The Parents knows about our relationship already.
And i mean it, the two pairs of parents.
Yeah, and we did go through shit. But honestly, I just cant be bothered already.
They've been going on since i was like what, Sec One?
So now they know the truth, they really hafta accept the fact.
Because I know i won't budge, really
And they can do whatever they want, but at the end of the day,
They know I won't end it just like that.
Sigh.. ran out of luck? You bet.
I figured out, I just wanna do what I do best,
Which is make myself happy,
And if people's not happy with that,then.. Too bad.
They're just gonna deal with it right? not me.
Today i found out i really cant stand crowded areas,
Honestly, i just get sick of so many people knocking my shoulder, or people stepping on my foot, or people just walking ahead without looking at what they're walking to, which is mainly, me.
Damn, what a fucking situation, and esp when they're skin really sticky,
I feel like puking my guts out, and shit in their faces.
Hello?! I'm like right infront of you so can you please look where you're going?
Yeah that's what i said at fucking zombie people walking around knocking against me.
And all of them stared at me like I'm the fucking All Spark or something,
Yeah, zombies. And when they wanna cut across you, they'll just walk straight up,
without the slightest "Excuse me" or "Sorry" or even without eye contact.
*&%$#@*&#$%&^@#$%$^*&^!
People like this are parasite to society,really.
All they do is make other people pissed with their lack of manners.
They're really zombie-fied pig-stuffed snort-gutted fag-tounged bitches.
grrr. I really cant control my emotions towerds ppl like this already.
They make me really sick. Honestly.
Anyways, Mugging has been making me feel really panicky and out of breath.
Gawd, that was random.
A diamond. A diamond is a precious metal that is almost impossible to find.
it is one in a million, and you can find a diamond once in a lifetime.
With proper care, under the right type of warmth from Fire, a diamond will shine.
Today, some one told me I am a Diamond. Melts.
So if i'm Diamond, then i think i know who's the Fire already.
Shadiq, (if you're reading this)
I think you're the loveliest boyfriend because you never fail to make me smile everytime we meet. And you say the sweetest things, and how we have endless fun whenever we go out. You know, days spent with you, are days filled with sunshine.
Never do i feel worry, nor sadness.
And when i cant make it, you'll tell me i can.
And even if i dont, you still make me feel like i'm on top of the werld.
With you, I'm seeing a whole another werld deep inside.
And you make me feel love even at the smallest crack or corner of my heart.
And if this go on, I don't need no plane to fly.
I love you.
Sigh, Monday i'm going to school with no more eyes.
Too much crying done over Maths, it's so not werth it.
I think, I'll rather die (:
Ran out of luck? Hell Yeah.
Cheers.