Today is Wednesday. Usually on this day we are spending our time in the filthy music room, trying hard to keep up with Mr Ng and getting stressed out with each and every mistake that occurs. Painstakingly enduring the harsh criticism, sometimes with not much to think about but just making a good sound. But now, SYF is over. It is time to celebrate our first NO-CCA-WEDNESDAY of the year. yeehaw.
The pool awaits us with open arms. Irah baby came too since it'll be kind of a bore if it's just me, Khai & Fifi. We came across Sec 2 guy from ESSS swimming alone in pool so he joined us. I think his name is Hazritz, no?
my girlfriends power!
haha. my face steamo. all hair like shit so flat.
irah babyyyyy!
with my good friend firdaus.
& khai, khai baby ku.Okay after swimming we kindda head off to Rasa 21 to have some food since we were oh so ravenous, atleast for me. Irah couldn't join us for dinner since she wanted to meet her boyfriend. However Michelle, Anna & Adelina came to join us for some chat. Michelle was really high today. tsk tsk, dunno what got into her.
I am kindda pissed about some matters I do not wish to prominently expose here. But it is regarding friendship. The difference between friendship and relationship is that a friendship is when you have a friendly tie with some one whom you could chat and laugh with and basically hang out with. A relationship is when you have an attachement with someone you love and have an affair with, which often involves alot of commitment and intimacy, things you would never need to do with a friend. A relationship is alot of ups and downs, usually surviving all tears and fears together. So you see the difference? Is is wrong to have a platonic friendship with someone, regardless of gender? Is is wrong to hang out with someone, even if its in a group?
I know myself. Myself know my limits.
I am never interested in guys who has a lady.
I am never interested in anyone else.
Aldwyn, that trumpet guy from B.V sec, they were all a joke.
And this friend of mine, he is my good friend.
So you see what's going on?
I only have enough time and love for one guy,
& that would be Shadiq.
So ya'll get my point?Oh well, terminate topic "friendship vs r/s". I went home only to be welcomed with even more tension from my mom. I love her alot but sometimes I wish she could just show some affection in a different way. Talk about tough love. I am not doing well in this situation. Sometimes I wish I could remind her she have been like this for the past 4 years now. And time pass so fast because she has been like this all the time, I almost forgot how it started. I am trying hard not lose myself in this.
This is also to remind Shadiq that I love him alot. I am sorry I keep saying "hey that guy is cute" or "hey i love firemen they're so hot". These are some lame bad jokes. Inside jokes I call 'em. But the only one person that has my heart is you.
i am suha. suha knows herself well. so ya'll think about it. cheers.