Have you ever have this feeling, like, the same feeling you have when you are about to cry? When you feel like there's this huge lump stuck in your throat, and your whole mouth becomes dry. Sometimes you feel your palms and toes burning, and your eyes will turn all watery. Yeah, for some days in school or at home, I would suddenly experience this feeling. It's been a while since I let everything out and become this really emotional pussy. But it's really hard when you cannot talk about it to someone. It's hard when you're trying to pretend to be okay. Because the more I pretend, the more harder I fall. I counted the days till Friday. There was hope. But as the sun set, and as night creeps in. As the minutes tick by, all my happiness drained away. Maybe there'll be a beep at the last minute. Maybe, there's still hope. But as the clock strikes midnight, I knew I was going to cry myself to sleep. So I lay there on my bed, trying to take in deep breaths, trying to get a grip of myself. But everything keep on crumbling. I knew I was so much more stronger than this, but, everything doesn't feel right. I tried finding some kind of sedative, to take all this pain away. The same old question keeps on playing in my mind. "Where is he?". I wish it was easy. I wish juggling my emotions, and my principles would be easy. I wish being strong was easy. Everything is just so complex, it is making my heart ache alot. Love, is this tender and gentle feeling, an affection for someone. I wish it was that easy.
"Where is he?"