there is no point.

In life, I have found out that in order to survive in such a beautiful world filled with cruel people, I have to be bitchy and strong and I have to make a stand, so that I will get what I deserve. In life, I cannot trust people so easily, that it takes time to really believe if somebody's intentions are good or not. In life, I cannot be swallowed whole by people who don't deserve my respect or kindness. So I have to be bitchy when I have to. Eventhough I am actually a very good person.

Highlight of the today was playing the OR game with my boyfriend. Hahaha. It was funny, but, he chose ALL 7 of BOGs in some of the choices. Haha, see, I am very proud that's why I posted it here.

Suha, or a Mercedes, a Porsche, a million dollars, a jet plane and many bikini clad women?
Suha, or Jessica Alba?
Suha, or bboy?
Suha, or a performance with Gambler?
All Suha. (ceyy dunno true or not. ahah.)
Suha bald forever or Suha obese forever? Bald.
Suha with no teeth forever or Suha with no legs? No legs.
Suha with a big scar on her face or Suha obese? Obese.
Suha with rashes on the face or Suha obese? Obese.
Suha deaf or Suha mute? Deaf.
Suha with clear complexion or Suha with big boobs? Big boobs.
Hahaha.
Suha dies of cancer, or Suha die of accident? Cancer.

Today I am very emotional. I cried alot because I am feeling very tired and sad of everything. But I have a shoulder to cry on to. So I don't feel so lonely. That shoulder is very hard like stone. But I don't care because it still feels like a teddy. So that person, whose shoulder is like stone, sent me home. I am very happy. I know you all know who that person is, but I purposely just wanna make it sound like a mystery. That person is a very clever and smart person. Sometimes I am stupid and do things that are rash, based on instincts. But whatever he said is true. I believe in this person because he thinks out of the box. I am a little slow. Or maybe I am just trying to be nice and not make enemies. But I cannot fall out in life. I wanna thank this person. He has made me day today. It was kind of a sucky day because I was feeling very exhausted. But this stone teddy cheered me up.

Okay okay, the stone teddy is Shadiq.

I love you.

Today I talk a little bit weird. But I feel weird so, it's okay. Cheers.