Quite frankly, I was never good at spilling my guts or my heartfelt thoughts into words. But sometimes I try. To be honest, 4 is a big number, for me and I'm sure it is to you too, and it amazes me how we could come this far, up to this point. I guess time proved that love couldn't be ignored, no matter how much we sometimes try to avoid it. This takes me back to 4 years ago, at this very day, 5:36pm to be exact, I stood infront of you, palms sweaty, heart racing, thinking, "What the hell did we get ourselves into?" Just a pair of young,foolish teenagers. Still,we found a way to get along eventhough our interests definitely mismatched in every way possible.
Now, it seems clear. That this thing we both have, this relationship, or perhaps this friendship, full of love, thrill, excitement, full of life and colour, is something that hasn't faded all throughout these few years. It hasn't be a smooth journey to be honest, and you know that. We are reckless and fall into potholes and make mistakes and we hurt each other without realizing. Sometimes you bring me through Hell, and sometimes I wish I've never met you at all. But other times you make me feel like it's just you and me and the universe, and nothing else matters. After every fight which left us broken, every single heartache that left us hanging, every single tear that we shed, we still come running back to each other.
I guess this thing we have is special, one that I learn to appreciate and protect and cherish. What I know is you still give me the same jittery feeling I get when I stand infront of you for the first time. Whenever I see you walking towards me, whenever I hear your voice call out my name, whenever you smile.. It's always sunshine when you smile. And I've always been in love with your smile. It's crazy. I'm in love with you.
Hahahahahahahaha alamakkkkk so truthfully, I know it's weird, this much mushy/cheesy/tacky things coming from me. Maybe people see us as weird because sometimes we are too crazy, too sarcastic, to have something as romantic as this. But to hell with what people think, because I know I'll always have a bestfriend and a lover in you, Shadiq. I ♥ you ok! xoxo