There's no reason for us to believe in love. It's just a word, purely made up, it has no accurate definition or meaning. You walk around and meet new people and go to places and get to experience different variations of emotions, those that bring you up and those that bring you down. Until you meet that one person that takes you to both places at the same time. Like a rollercoaster ride. It's not always happy and sunny and bright. Those stuff in the movies doesn't happen all the time. It's not all flower-and-candy. But I guess this is real, this thing we have. The great unknown. The blur line between reality and fantasy. To be honest, I am shit-scared of the future and I feel like I am walking on this tight rope all the time, each time I give a little more, each time I feel a little more. But I guess that's love. It's never there until you feel it and you create your own definition and I guess in the end you believe in it. All the walls are knocked down, our guards no longer up, we start to trust our instincts and everything just seem crystal clear. I love you. Yknow, the person you love may bring you down, make you fall real bad, but the important thing is if they managed to pick you back up, saving you from your own pain and I guess you do that to me Shadiq. Nobody's perfect but you are perfectly imperfect. Nothing has really changed since I first saw you. You're all goofy and smiling and still doing that now and I guess we've grown alot over the past few years and we learnt alot from each other. I can safely call you my best friend and my lover and it's amazing how you can be both at the same time. You're the craziest, funniest, most retarded person ever and simply the best. You give me piggybacks and hugs and kisses and you give me a love like no other. I spend days busking in your warmth and your presence, looking into your eyes and appreciating every moment of it. It's that feeling when you're a part of something beautiful. And I guess when we're living in that moment, this blanket of greatness always falls upon us, keeping us happy all the time. You and me. Happy 5th, love.
xx