I just came back from a really great day but as usual I fuck things up. I've been doing this on a regular basis and it becomes so frequent that I actually feel like it's okay to do that. Knowing that someone would always cheer me up and pick me up when I stumble. It's a bad habit. It's like smoking, whenever you feel stressed up you smoke a stick thinking it will make you feel better. So I thought whenever I have bad thoughts and if I voice it out, someone would make me feel better but things only gets worse cos in the end I believe negativity leads to happiness. It's all in the mind they say, holycunts that's so true. It's all in the fucking mind.
