shoot me before i do that something rash.

life is boring. each day i wake up, same routine. to school, try to scrape through,then i head home, happy i survive through the day. maybe there was a test, or some things i wasn't too happy about in school, but i made it through & that itself, is a blessing. i reach home, tired and beat, sleepy even but i force to keep my eyes open so i could atleast do some work. but the work never stops and sometimes i just gotta force myself to sleep so i would be prepared to face the next day. there's never a day i would be so sure of myself. never a day i would feel confident to face school and go through all that shit to prove myself. sigh, i am barely scraping through. we got the verification slip just now. O levels a few months away. eyes open, eyes shut, i would be facing this one big hurdle. oh God.

yesterday didn't do anything much. basically some sketches for art. then firdaus called around 8pm asking me if i wanted to hangout. yeah so he came over to my area so we could do homework. we chat alot, its really awesome i could tell my problems to him and all. he's a cool friend.

anyways, school has been the usual. chem test wasn't done well. i would be predicting a fail. shit man. i keep failing every chemistry test. science is the worst subject ever. no offence to the science teachers they are doing an awesome job, but nothing gets in this brain of mine. i need to start focusing more. concentrate suha, concentrate! just now after chem test i went to the art room to finish up alittle on my boards. deadline was extended to wednesday, oh thank you God. i need to redo the first board. two sketches have been rejected, i need to print some pictures, and the heading for "artist statement" is too large so i would hafta alter it. & i would need to revamp the second board it looks too kiddy. grrrrrrrrrr. thank you syairah and syahirah you girls listened to me complain about nothing in particular but my shit life as a student.

after art met shadiq, who filled my sworn-hatred-to-school-life with pure enjoyment. *winks* haha. he made my day basically. i could laugh my ass off. hahaha. M-MMM-M-MM-MMONSTER ****! ahem. haha thank you for taking the bus with me eventhough your eyes are already turning red, a good sign to show you're physically and mentally tired. i love you but sometimes you should stop being irritating you ass. especially on msn.


& sometimes you should practise smiling rather than being vain all the time shadiq lalalalalala. ok you all young people young people. suha ciao. cheers.